The Newest Addition!

I am happy to announce the addition of the Nova SN-b violet wand kit to my dungeon! I referred to my old wand as a mini wand because it was a high-frequency wand unit (not a true violet wand) and did not have the power of a real violet wand.

I chose the Nova SN-b because of its comparable power to the traditional/mechanical wands and for its ability to work in any position and direction. As many of you know, I climb around, crawl around, and work from all sorts of crazy directions while in session, so I needed a wand that would allow me to do that without shutting off in midway through. If you look at the violet wand comparison charts below you can see that the Nova SN-b operates at 48kv, only 2 kv under most of the traditional/mechanical style wands (those are the coil type wands that can be positionally challenged). The only one more powerful than those on the list(s) is the Mjolnir Pulse Prime at 65kv.

I have been a busy bee making and adding evil conductive items to use in indirect and reverse technique with the violet wand. Some of those little creations are pictured in the kit here and some are not.
These are many, but not all, of the conductive items I already had prior to purchasing the violet wand. More items are coming soon or on their way now! These can all be used via various techniques with the violet wand.

If you are into electro play, branding, electro cbt or just electro teasing now I have an entirely new application for many of the items I already own. If you would like to experience the new violet wand, schedule a session with me! I promise it will be an electrifying experience!*

***Note that this type of electro play is not recommended for those with heart conditions, pacemakers or other electrical devices or implants such as an insulin pump, etc. It is also not recommended for those that suffer from seizures.

What Does a BDSM Dominant Look Like?

Close-up shot of black fetish corset lacing

People just love to make assumptions! Yet many times when we do we are very, very wrong. This can be especially true if you are making assumptions about a person based solely upon their career. That is hardly a good gauge of one’s true self, preferences, tastes, character, or sexuality, especially these days! Doctors can have different bedside manners, tattoo artists often have different hand pressure from one to the next, grocery store checkout people have different interaction skills and personalities, etc. The important thing is to choose someone who offers you what you are seeking. Perhaps you want a doctor in good standing with the medical board but who also has a sense of humor, or a light-handed tattoo artist practicing proper equipment cleaning procedures, or a friendly checkout person who can actually count back your change. None of these preferences can be determined simply by knowing a person is a doctor, tattoo artist or checkout person. Those specifics are determined by the person’s own unique personality, work ethic, and character, not by the job itself.

Picture from the Netflix original series Bonded

This same idea applies to the BDSM dominant. Each and every dominant was once a child with their own unique personality. Once a dominant, all of these people don’t assimilate into an army of clones. They remain unique individuals with their own unique fetish preferences and personal preferences. They merely share some traits relating to dominant behavior. Due to their differences, however, each dominant is going to have a unique style. Having said that, there are still some basics that set responsible dominants apart from the wannabees and those just trying to turn a quick buck or trick you into a bad situation. The article I am sharing below is about just that! Enjoy!

A Trans Hotline is Available!

As much as I loathe the word, “folks,” I feel this article is important to share, despite the backwoods language. (Them there words like “folks” is unedumacated yammerins!) People or persons would have sufficed. : / Anyway, here is the article.

America’s First Transgender Suicide Hotline Is Live

Jesse Mechanic, ContributorWriter. Founding Editor of

12/22/2017 10:34 am ET Updated Dec 27, 2017

The National Transgender Discrimination Survey (NTDS) completed by the National Center for Transgender Equality and the National Gay and Lesbian Task Force, found that 41 percent of trans individuals surveyed had attempted suicide—the general population number at the time was 1.6 percent. A study by the Williams Institute analyzing the NTDS report found that suicide attempt rates were even higher for those between the ages of 18-24 (45 percent), those with a multiracial background (54 percent), those who are American Indian or native Alaskans (56 percent), those without a full high school education (48-49 percent), and those with an annual household income less than $10k (54 percent). The study also found the suicide attempt rate was higher among those who disclosed to everyone that they were trans or gender non-conforming (50 percent).

These numbers are catastrophically high; the disparity is simply devastating. While we certainly need to do everything we can to become a more accepting society, we also need more resources for the trans community right now. Thankfully, the transgender community has its own suicide hotline courtesy of Trans Lifeline.

US: (877) 565-8860 CANADA: (877) 330-6366

The line is staffed by transgender people and is entirely dedicated to the trans community.

It’s open every day for 18 hours:

Pacific time: 8am to 2am

Mountain time: 9 a.m. to 3 a.m.

Central time: 10 a.m. to 4 a.m.

Eastern time: 11 a.m. to 5 a.m.

Resources like these are vital.

While society has certainly evolved in terms of how we treat the LGBTQ+ community overall, the transgender community is still stigmatized and demonized all over the country and the world. This is why, as the aforementioned stats bear out, being publicly trans or gender non-conforming can be even more isolating than hiding. Imagine identifying with a gender that doesn’t align with your physical form, imagine reckoning with that realization in a society that can be judgmental, crude, hateful and helplessly stitched to binary ideas of gender. And then imagine somehow, in spite of it all, summoning the bravery to be yourself. This is something we should celebrate, not castigate.

Unfortunately, pleas for empathy and acceptance will not shift society overnight, so the trans community needs organizations like Trans Lifeline. Hopefully, this is one in the first in a new wave of resources aimed at helping trans folks.

Correction: It was originally reported that Trans Lifeline is a new service, but they have been in operation since 2014.

Previously published on The Overgrown.

*This article was found here.

More BDSM Psychology

The article shared below can also be found HERE.

The Surprising Psychology of BDSM

Who does it, what do they do, and how does it affect them?

Posted Feb 05, 2015

By Brad Sagarin, Ph.D., guest contributor

 “A pervert is anybody kinkier than you are.” (Wiseman, 1996, p. 23).

The novel Fifty Shades of Grey introduced BDSM into polite public discourse. Since its publication, hallowed papers such as The New York Times have published articles on bondage and discipline, dominance and submission, and sadism and masochism. Harvard University now hosts a student group for undergraduates interested in consensual S&M. And Cosmo’s sex tips have taken a distinctly kinky turn.

With the Fifty Shades movie now coming to theaters, it seems like a good time to take stock of what we know, scientifically, about BDSM: Who does this stuff? What do they do? And what effects do these activities have on the people who do them?


1. How many people are into S&M?

According to researchers, the number likely falls somewhere between 2 percent and 62 percent. That’s right: Somewhere between 2 percent and 62 percent. A pollster who published numbers like that should be looking for a new job. But when you’re asking people about their sex habits, the wording of the question makes all the difference.

On the low end, Juliet Richters and colleagues (2008) asked a large sample of Australians whether they had “been involved in B&D or S&M” in the past 12 months. Only 1.3 percent of women and 2.2 percent of men said yes.

On the high end, Christian Joyal and colleagues (2015) asked over 1,500 women and men about their sexual fantasies. 64.6 percent of women and 53.3 percent of men reported fantasies about being dominated sexually—and 46.7 percent of women and 59.6 percent of men reported fantasies about dominating someone sexually. Overall, we can probably conclude that a substantial minority of women and men do fantasize about or engage in BDSM.

2. Are they sick?

For Freud, the answer was a clear yes: Anyone interested in S&M was in need of treatment—treatment that, by fine coincidence, he and his contemporaries were qualified to provide.

But recent research tells a different story.

Pamela Connolly compared BDSM practitioners to published norms on 10 psychological disorders. Compared to the normative samples, BDSM practitioners had lower levels of depression, anxiety, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), psychological sadism, psychological masochism, borderline pathology, and paranoia. (They showed equal levels of obsessive-compulsive disorder and higher levels of dissociation and narcissism.)

Similarly, Andreas Wismeijer and Marcel van Assen compared BDSM practitioners to non-BDSM-practitioners on major personality traits. Their results showed that in comparison to non-practitioners, BDSM practitioners exhibited higher levels of extraversion, conscientiousness, openness to experience, and subjective well-being. Practitioners also showed lower levels of neuroticism and rejection sensitivity. The one negative trait that emerged? BDSM practitioners showed lower levels of agreeableness than non-practitioners.

This is not to say that everyone into sadism or masochism is doing so for psychologically healthy reasons. The latest version of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5) still includes Sexual Sadism Disorder and Sexual Masochism Disorder as potential diagnoses. But a diagnosis now requires the interest or activities to cause “clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning” (or to be done with a non-consenting partner). BDSM between consenting adults that “does not cause the participants distress” no longer qualifies.

3. What do they do?

Both researchers and practitioners (Wiseman, 1996) have developed categories of BDSM activities. For example, Alison and colleagues have categories for physical restriction (bondage, handcuffs, chains); administration of pain (spanking, caning, putting clothespins on the skin); humiliation (gags, verbal humiliation); and a category related to sexual behavior.

4. What effect does BDSM have on the people who do it?

This is one of the central questions my research team has been investigating. In a BDSM scene, the person who is bound, receiving stimulation and/or following orders is called the bottom. The person providing the stimulation, orders or structure is called the top. We measured a range of physiological and psychological variables in bottoms and tops before and after their scenes.

Both bottoms and tops reported increases in relationship closeness and decreases in psychological stress from before to after their scenes, but bottoms also showed increases in physiological stress as measured by the hormone cortisol. We found this disconnect between psychological stress and physiological stress to be very interesting, and we wondered whether it might indicate that bottoms have entered an altered state of consciousness.

To test this theory, we ran a study in which we randomly assigned switches (BDSM practitioners who sometimes take on the top role and sometimes take on the bottom role) to be the top or the bottom in a scene. The results revealed that both bottoms and tops entered altered states of consciousness, but they entered different altered states.

Bottoms entered an altered state called “transient hypofrontality”, which is associated with reductions in pain, feelings of floating, feelings of peacefulness, feelings of living in the here and now and time distortions. Tops, in contrast, entered the altered state known as “flow” (Csikszentmihalyi, 1991), which is associated with focused attention, a loss of self-consciousness and optimal performance of a task. We believe that these pleasurable altered states of consciousness might be one of the motivations that people have for engaging in BDSM activities.


  • Human sexuality journals such as Archives of Sexual Behavior and the Journal of Sex Research
  • Organizations such as the Kinsey Institute, the Society for the Scientific Study of Sexuality (SSSS) and the Community-Academic Consortium for Research on Alternative Sexuality (CARAS)
  • Web sites such as (my own site)
  • Advocacy organizations such as the National Coalition for Sexual Freedom (NCSF)
  • Community organizations such as the Society of Janus and the Arizona Power Exchange
  • Books such as Jay Wiseman’s SM 101: A Realistic Introduction
  • … Or you could simply Google “BDSM” and see what comes up, but I wouldn’t try it at work.

Brad Sagarin, Ph.D., is a Professor of Psychology at Northern Illinois University. He teaches courses on evolutionary psychology, attitude change and statistics. His research interests include social influence, resistance to persuasion, deception, jealousy, and infidelity, human sexuality and research methods.


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Keeping it Positive!

I shared the link to the crossdresser’s reference page someplace online tonight, mentioning that if there were any suggestions for website additions that people please let me know. Then I thought it prudent to add something more to that statement. I would like to share that something more here now.

“In regard to the reference page, I am trying to keep it to things that are helpful without getting bogged down in the political stuff, so I did not include websites promoting political agendas or those lashing back at the non-trans population for being “privileged” in some way. The non-trans population had no more say in how their sexuality and identity developed than did any trans person. Therefore, I will not be part of promoting division, hatred, or notions of “privilege” between the two. Promoting such division will not further anyone’s cause. It will only serve as fuel for more violence and prejudice. Those are things we do NOT need more of in this world! What I think we need more of is the live and let live mentality where we do what is right for ourselves and stay out of the decision regarding what is right for our neighbor.

In other words, don’t submit these type of hateful pages for me to add because I won’t. I want helpful, positive resources only.” ~ Portia

One cannot convince another to accept one’s way of life if one is not also willing to accept the other’s way of life in return. It simply defies the laws of the universe.

An Easy BDSM DIY Gag

I saw this pacifier gag on Etsy, and thought, I could make that (pictured below)!

If you don’t have the time or patience for BDSM craft projects you could just order this item and be done with it, but I had just picked up a couple pacifiers for my dungeon, so I figured I would just make one into a gag.

I sat down with my tools, rivets and a very skinny belt only to realize my pacifier didn’t have the same slots as the one pictured on Etsy (above). Mine had smaller circular holes, so I would either have to cut slots in the plastic, or abandon the belt idea. I wasn’t in a patient mood, so I ditched the belt.

I decided to take a quicker, less pretty, but still functional route. Instead, I opted for paracord rope with a little plastic cincher like you find on jacket hoods. I could have done some nifty knot work along the sides, similar to a paracord bracelet, but again, I was not in a patient mood, so I just used a single paracord strand on each side. My crude, but functional version is pictured below.

You simply put the cord through the hole in whatever crude or fancy way you like, then measure the length of the paracord by putting it around your head to ensure it will fit around someone else’s head. Use a lighter to melt the ends of the paracord strands. Try to keep the ends of the melted paracord rope skinny so they will slip through the plastic cincher. Two strands of paracord through this type of plastic cincher can be a pretty tight fit. (If you heat it short bursts you won’t burn your finger while shaping the ends.) Once I threaded each paracord strand through the plastic cincher, I tied knots at the ends so they could not slip back through the clincher. That would be a time waster to re-thread during a session. I then heated my knots with a lighter to melt the knot a little. It is less likely to come untied that way. You could also dip the knots in a plasti-dip coating if you were so inclined. I wasn’t.

That’s it. You now have a pacifier that you can slip over your sub’s head and cinch up in a jiffy! No buckles, no incorrectly spaced holes. No need to add extra holes to the leather. Just zip it snug and move on. Easy peasy!

The cost to order the pretty version is $26.32 plus shipping. For mine, I obtained two pacifiers for $1 at Dollar Tree, you can also get 25ft of paracord there for $1. I already had a package of plastic cinchers I purchased from the sewing section in Michael’s. They are also available cheap on Amazon as seen on the picture below, or free if you take one off an old jacket hood. I’m going to guess my pacifier gag cost me about $3 (no shipping), with supplies leftover if I wanted to make more. : )

Why Do We Cross Dress?

I stumbled across this article while doing research on a related topic. While some of the points within the article may ring true for some, I feel it over looks those who psychologically identify as a different gender, and those who truly wish to transition into the opposite sex. Nevertheless, it is interesting to read, so I am sharing it below.

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